used to.

Don't know what's going on with me lately but have never had such insane writer's block. After funny things happen or enlightenment takes place within my day, I'd immediately start writing in my head an opening paragraph and think of what photo to use along with the story. It's been nearly a month and because this blog is such an important tool I use to keep in touch with you, I thought maybe if I just started writing, something would eventually pour out.

Denver: I'm really ecstatic about going in late October to run my 4th half marathon. My incredible friend Lynn whom I know from college (remind me to tell you how we first met) lives in Wyoming with her husband and kids and in the last year, our friendship has blossomed and bloomed. It's insane how much we are in each other's heads and so on the same page. She's a brilliant woman with a beautiful family and recently lost a ton of (baby)weight and because of her endless supply of motivation, I'm inspired to stay fit and running. Our conversations usually consist of "Hey what are you doing tonight, want to come over?" to which I reply "Ya, sure I'll pick up dinner and be there in 5." It was because of this we started looking forward to a realistic date we could actually get together and visit... so when I missed my chance to register for Houston 2010 and started thinking outside the Texas box, I came across the Denver marathon. We both couldn't shake the idea OR the excitement of how realistic this was turning out to be and now here we are, 5 weeks away!! In addition to that, one of my best friends Heather (also from college) now LIVES in Denver so we've turned this into a big girl's weekend. In Denver. I am ecstatic and absolutely giddy. I'm pretty sure I could live there one day.

KSBJ: I can't believe I've been here for 5 years. I celebrated my 5 year anniversary on August 17th and since then I've felt a different kind of confidence in my ability and what God has called me to do here. I've been thinking a lot about writing some "behind the scenes memoirs" of my time here - esp. about my favorite artists and the growth I've seen in Christian music from my perspective. Interaction with artists backstage and in the studio, time with co-workers, embarrassing experiences and favorite moments at events with listeners and the beautiful people I've gotten to meet. Wow, I'm so blessed. Maybe I'll just start blogging about that. And I'm still not completely settled in my new office upstairs in Building A, it kinda feels a little weird. Maybe it's going to take some time to adjust, but after so many years in Building B, I feel a little sentimental :) Plus, sharing an office with Mike and Jen and being so close to Barb was a huge perk. I do however love my view. I have huge windows facing east and will often spin around, prop my feet up on the sill and watch the planes, one after the other descend directly above me into IAH. It's quite a show... And I daydream about what's in store for the next 5 years. Can you even imagine?

Family: I miss my brothers and Kim more than EVER. They are all doing really well but MAN it hurts. Dad and I are planning a trip to Belize in October (it's our favorite) and I heard Andrew may make it. I hope so. We've been several times and each trip something has kept us from getting to Placencia, a town far south. I think we're gonna try for it again. I love traveling with my family. You know I was homeschooled? Dad's worked for Continental for over 25 years so growing up, dad traveled a lot for work and because we were homeschooled, we just went with him. We did mostly the States, Europe and Central America and I'm pretty sure it's the sole reason we still all crave adventure. We got the traveling bug early on, man. And we feel like we each took our traveling passion to a whole new corner of the earth. Boy oh boy, do we have some stories. That could be a whole other blog.

Love: DK and I ventured into some uncharted waters recently and have had a really tough time. I credit this tough stuff to my lack of creativity or desire to write lately but didn't feel like mentioning it earlier in this post. Now I'm just rollin' and it came out. It's hard being on the radio and living the details of my life so publicly... then feeling with this one delicate subject, because it's so vulnerable right now and I don't have all the answers to the why where when and how, I'm feel like I'm kinda being dishonest with everyone. I hate this. I choose to (try to) allow God to keep me an open book so that in whatever way He wants to encourage, share, grow or whatever through this platform called KSBJ radio, I'm game. I share everything else, but this has been the toughest one and I just. don't. wanna. The most stubborn part of me is pretty much mourning some details pertaining hopes and dreams and because I know God is working other important things right now, I'm essentially being told to wait. Again. And I don't like waiting, you see... I make my plans and I make them happen. I get a little teary eyed when I think about it - like right now - and regardless of the growth and wisdom I've attained from past experiences, you'd think I'd be a bit more patient. Everyday I'm seeing new things happen, some days it's something big like friends who love us telling us they love us and great things are coming soon, some days it's like a pretty rainbow or something nice like that. Either way, I love him and I believe good things are to come. I'm trusting big time.

Friends: Writing about all that stuff with DK made me think so much more about my friends, wow. I have the best friends in the world. I've never really had incredible and consistent best friends until I experienced a new dimension of God's love through these women in my life... women like Amanda, Domenica, Kristen, Brandi, Lynn, Heather H., Tiffany, Cindy, Heather S., and Becky. In the last couple months or so, I've felt a bit submerged in this comfortable idea that amongst them, it's totally ok to not have concise thoughts and that allowing me to be a really huge dork is part of what it means to ya know, love me :)

Anywho, I guess I just ralphed all over my blog. Thanks for believing such great things. God is good, I'll be in touch soon 'cause I think this really helped with my stinky writer's block :) XOXO.